The following is a guest post from Salma and her struggles sounds all too familiar: Working mom? Stay-at-home mom? Working from home mom… Who am I? What defines me? How do I and others value my contributions? There are positives and negatives for every situation and Salma describes what many of us struggle with. Thank you inviting us into your efforts to navigate the best situation for you and your family, Salma!

I have always loved my job and looked forward to going to work every day. Up until earlier this year, that job was as a T.V. producer for Breakfast Television, Winnipeg. It was a place for me to be creative. I got to help plan a live show, go out with camera people and shoot stories, write scripts, work in the control room and sometimes I would report stories in front of the camera. Each day was an adventure, something new and different. I never wanted to be a stay-at-home mom. I respected them tremendously, (my mom was a SAHM) but it was just not for me. Or so I thought.

After baby number two, when I went back to work at the end of my maternity leave, I started having thoughts about the things I was missing with the kids while I was at work. A big transition also happened. We had to move from Winnipeg to Vancouver. I said goodbye to my home for six years, left my job and came back to my hometown. I started looking for new jobs in my field of work and had meetings with different people in the industry. While I was doing that, I had family watching my kids.

The funny thing is, the more people I had around wanting to take care of the kids, the more I realized that I wanted to be the one taking care of my own children. I wanted to be the one waking up with them in the middle of the night, giving them breakfast, reading books with them, taking them to the library for story time and wiping their tears.

I finally made the decision that I would NOT look for a job and that I would stay home with the kids. I still wanted a creative outlet, so decided to pursue a freelance writing and blogging career; a work-at-home mom! I was excited to start this new journey in my life. But the reality of it was a lot different than I imagined.

With a two-year old and four-year old, time to focus on writing was limited to short nap times and at night after the kids were asleep.

My real struggle came internally, something that I couldn’t really voice or explain. It came down to the fact that once I was at home, I didn’t feel like an equal in my marriage, I didn’t feel good enough. Yes, I was making a little money from my writing, but only enough to buy the groceries and go for outings. Not enough to pay the rent, to put money towards our debt or pay any significant bills.

The reason it bothered me so much was that all my life I grew up wanting to be an independent woman. I always wanted to be able to support myself and any future family I had. I never wanted to count solely on someone else for my livelihood. Yet, here I was, completely dependent on my husband’s income for everything and I couldn’t handle it.

I know that being a stay-at-home parent is a really important job and it’s a pretty darn tough job. Equal, if not harder, than the job of the parent working outside of the home. (I’m pretty sure that my husband couldn’t do what I do all day.) But I didn’t feel like an equal. It affected my self-confidence, my relationship with my husband and my attitude.

I didn’t know what to do. I wanted it all; to stay home with my kids, to be creative, to be a significant financial contributor to our family and an equal partner in our relationship. It seemed like too much to ask.

Finally after months of feeling like this and keeping everything bottled up, I knew something had to change. I talked to my husband, who was very supportive. I also realized that this was my own decision and if I wanted to stay home with my kids, which I did, there were some sacrifices I would have to make and I would have to overcome the feelings of negativity and inequity. Realistically, I realized, the sacrifices I felt like I was making were only temporary. In a few years, both my kids would be in school full time and the whole day would be mine to work, be creative and make as much money as I wanted. The proverbial cake would be mine to have and to eat.


Until then, I would have to accept that even though I wasn’t a financially equal contributor to our family, what I was contributing had as much impact as money. I was not the primary earner but I was the primary caregiver. In their vital years, I would be the ones teaching the kids about life, love, morals and anything else that came along the way and really, there is no monetary value to put on that.

Salma is a freelance writer, television producer and host. She is married and has two kids under four. She recently moved back home from Winnipeg to Vancouver and is learning the ropes as a WAHM. She’s a bargain shopaholic and loves to read, if there’s ever any time.

You can find her at where she writes a parenting and lifestyle blog.

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  1. Lina Zussino says:

    The importance you play in your children’s lives far out weights a pay cheque. I too am a SAHM, I’m a blogger, I teach fitness but I am also an educator and a mom now. I never thought of myself this way until recently. I am proud to say it! There should be no shame or guilt on deciding to stay home to raise and educate your kids. Negativity and inequity – you are fortunate to have this option, embrace it.

    I read a lot of blogs posts like yours and I admit I’ve questioned myself but I am not guilty and do not try and justify that I prefer the satisfaction of being at home with my daughter to a pay cheque. That is just who I am. I do not feel inferior that my husband makes a lot more money than I do. In fact he tells me that without me he couldn’t do it so in actual fact I do play a big roll in our finance as I am sure you do – you might not think so.

    Beautiful photo of you and your kids, love that they are writing too!

    • Salma says:

      Thanks for your comment Lina. That’s so wonderful that you feel that way. I am slowly working to that because you’re right, what we do is very important and there isn’t a price we can put on it.

  2. Lauralee Moss says:

    You absolutely encompassed my feelings about being a SAHM. It is important, but other people don’t treat it that way and the kids take you for granted (because they have no idea because they’re kids). I always write about this on my blog, and I am so refreshed reading that I’m not alone!

  3. Jen says:

    Being a mom is the most important job we’ll ever do. Staying home isn’t an option for me financially, but I would certainly consider it if it was. I’m glad you followed your heart and did what was best for your family, even though it wasn’t easy for you.

  4. Misty Spears says:

    Fantastic post today. I’m not a SAHM, but I was with my first 3 kids. Now, with my one year old daughter, my husband is the SAHD. He catches a lot of flack from other people who don’t understand, but I am completely thankful that one of us is home with her, even if it isn’t me.

  5. Marilyn Thompson says:


    Don’t feel guilty about staying at home raising your children, many Moms are envious. Continue your writing as I’m sure you will be able to earn more but the important part is what you’re giving to your kids.

  6. Jenn Alex Brockman says:

    I had a stay at home mom and I would not change that for all the money or things or opportunity in the world. My mother had more than her share of troubles, but I can’t tell you how much it meant to me then (and now) that she was there everyday when I got home.

  7. Raj says:

    Great post Salma! I’ve felt this same struggle in my life & can empathize. I’ve always wanted to be the primary caregiver for my kids but struggled with my need to be something more also. I would see so many moms who loved being SAHM, and feel horrible because I didn’t thnk it was enough for me – I wanted both worlds; career and parenting.
    It wasn’t always easy, but I hung onto a few freelance gigs and part-time jobs when the kids were young, and now that they are at school full-time, it feels like it wasn’t such a big sacrifice being the parent that stayed home!

  8. Tamsin says:

    Never underestimate the impact of being there for your kids, Salma. They may only realise it in years to come, but the contribution you can make is immeasurable. It IS tough trying to juggle all the boys and be everything to everyone, and you have to do what is right for you where you are, and it will change over time.

  9. Candace @ Candida Free Candee says:

    Great job Salma! I know, being a SAHM is something I never imagined myself being but now that I am I have come to discover it is what I was meant to be all along! I understand how you feel. I feel I get more pressure from other people than anything else. I get the, “so when are you going to start working again?”, the “don’t you get bored at home?” along with the “you’re not breastfeeding still are you?”. LOL, I’m learning to let it roll off my back but it sure does get to me sometimes. You’re not alone! Keep up the great work!

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